Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Listening Little by Little

Maybe it was the caffeine from the venti Earl Grey I enjoyed that evening.

Maybe it was the thoughts traversing many paths in my mind.

Maybe it was my sweetheart snoring next to me.

For some reason, I was still awake.

Quiet nights are the new normal, yet lately

They have become more peaceful.

The blessing of quiet is that I have a chance to listen.

My mouth is silent.

God has my attention like no other time of day.

He continues to woo me to him as his child that he loves.

I still dig my heels in and resist at times.

Why?

The other night God blessed me in the quiet

I was thinking of my precious children and the days of their births.

After the visitors had gone home and Daddy was home sleeping after a long day,

It was just my newborn and I together in the stillness of my room.

From my heart came the song "Jesus Loves Me".

God's truth resonated in the words.

My children are growing bigger now, growing in God's love.

On this particular night, I wished that I could have sung to Julia.

I wished I could have held her close and whispered in her ear

Gave her kisses

Taught her how much God loves her

God calmed my heart as the tears flowed on my pillow.

He sang the song to me.

Jesus loves me (that means me, Sandy) this I know

For the Bible tells me so

Little ones (such as Julia) to Him belong

They are week, but He is strong

Yes, Jesus loves me

Yes, Jesus loves me

Yes, Jesus loves me

The Bible tells me so.

God whispered in my ear, calmed my heart

And in the darkness of the night, sent me off into sweet sleep

I struggle with listening to God.

He is softening my heart, healing my heart, opening my heart

To feel his love poured in my life

To listen to his still voice in my life

To regain that awesome love relationship that He wants with me.

Nights are quiet

Am I listening?

5 comments:

Princess said...

I never thought of that song that way before. Thanks Mom. I ♥ You

He & Me + 3 said...

Listening is often hard for me. What a great post.

Jodi said...

Amazing post. It is hard to listen sometimes, we dig our heels in. But He never gives up on us! He loves you and is here to comfort you, I hope you continue to let him Sandy. ((hugs))

Bradley said...

Thanks for that beautiful post. I was awake last night (probably suffering still from jet lag) and wasn't particularly listening well, more like questioning why couldn't I fall asleep when I needed it so much. I was glad to read your post and be convicted about thinking more about those quiet times being precious times between just God and me.

jennifer said...

It is such a huge challenge for me to "be still and know that I am God". Thank you for your wonderful post.