Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Surrender

Driving to my daughter's science class at 7:30 in the morning does not usually provide much interesting conversation. I usually play praise music to get us started in the right direction. This morning the title song from PCD's "Let the Worshippers Arise" CD played on my iPod. I guess my little one was actually listening to the lyrics. From the back seat she raised the question, "What does it mean to surrender, Mom." What a loaded question from an almost five-year old.

Surrender is basically giving up, letting go, and not keeping hold of the control we so badly desire. In the song it refers to surrendering our all and surrendering to the King. I like control, honestly. This week my life has been a little out of my control. My anxiety level has risen and it does not feel good. I pondered my little one's words and simply responded. My easy definition, however, echoed in my mind all day.

What does it mean today to surrender (give up and give over control) all to my King? Some things I want to do are supported by some very good reasoning, or at least I think so. However, am I doing them to prove my point, to keep my upper hand, to not give into what God really wants me to do? God has challenged me today that I need to surrender to what He wants me to do. I am not sure I am up for that. None the less it makes no difference what I think. Complete surrender is God's will for my life.

I often wonder how much of Christ my kids see in me. Am I a control freak when it comes to doing God's will? LORD, help me to surrender to your perfect will for my life even when it is uncomfortable. Help me to see you and feel you holding my hand when giving up control is scary. Thank you that whatever you ask me to do you have already been there and you already know the outcome. Increase my faith in you.

3 comments:

Mrs. Susan Bowman said...

Yes - surrendering is such a hard thing to do. I think Mom's and teachers are by nature built in controllers --- but the cool thing when serving God -- surrendering to Him always brings victory for us.

Green Acres said...

I struggle with surrender too. And trust. Trusting God it will all work out, trusting Him to keep my family safe...trusting Him I'm doing the right thing, and on and on. I think it's all part of surrendering. When I am fully in "surrender mode" there is a certain peace I feel that only He can give me.

He And Me + 3 said...

Awesome conversation...God uses my kids so many times to reveal such huge concepts from Him that I need to grasp. THis is a great post. Thinking about surrendering too! Very tough, but to be in His will that is what we must do. Thanks for sharing.