Thursday, January 8, 2009

Really Random

I am trying to read for a change. School takes up a lot of my time, so I find it hard to sit and concentrate on a book that is not meant for elementary school. I plan on developing a lit program for high school so I am attempting to catch up on some of that material. The book of the day is To Kill a Mockingbird. Honestly, I saw the movie, but have never read the book.

This challenge is harder than I anticipated today. My kids have lots of questions and are fussing. I am dealing with a sick kid (he was throwing up this morning, but things have calmed down.) I have been driving kids hither and yon. Thursdays are crazy. Thankfully dinner is in the crock-pot. I just have to make the biscuits when my husband calls and says he'll be home in a half hour with the 3 older kids from a basketball game. I am tired just writing this!

In addition, I have been frustrated with ministry at my church. Choosing to have a good attitude is taxing. I need God's wisdom. I need patience and understanding. Much of me wants to hang it all and let someone else take over. What to do. I often state that my family is my number one ministry. I have 5 kids to disciple. Two of them have yet to ask Christ to be their Savior. I have a husband that God has given me to minister to. My ministry begins when my feet hit the floor every day. How do I balance ministry outside my home with what God has given me in my home? I don't think that we moms are called to opt out with family being the excuse. However, I think that many have opted out of their ministry with their family. Obviously our churches need everyone to participate. It is not meant to be run with only the ones with no families. That is absurd! How then do I balance?

I really don't know who all reads this. If you have any insights as to how you work things in your home, I would love to hear it.

Forgive me for my ranting rambling.


He And Me + 3 said...

Our church is small too, so at times I can get frustrated too. We don't even go on Sunday nights, because there is nothing for the is hard to be in ministry all the time. With a small church, the same people do all the ministering. Not sure if this is the problem you are having, but I have some ministry issues too. You are not alone.
Rest tonight friend and I pray that no one else gets sick.

Mrs. Susan Bowman said...

I've rarely met a Mom who doesn't struggle with these same things: Whether we work outside the home or in the home, there's always so much to do and so little time. Tonight, I was reminded of I Cor. 4:2-3: "Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful. I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. 4My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me."

Our job is to be faithful with the what God has entrusted to us. For us right now this is primarily our husbands and kids. And when God allows us to be involved in other ministries, we faithfully do what God enables us to do, and we don't let others judge -- and we don't judge ourselves.

Of course -- this is easier said than done!

Praying for you!

Green Acres said...

Our old pastor once told me that I needed to put my marriage and family's needs above that of the church. Once my family is taken care of, and all is well with them, it is alot easier to be able to minister to those outside my home. I don't know if that helps much, but it cleared it up for me. Hugs, I'll pray for you Sandy. It sounds like you've got alot on your mind.

Sandy said...

Thank you ladies for your insight. I appreciate that you thought to express your prayers and wisdom.

Anonymous said...

please know that i read your ramblings...and i am praying for you. i know exactly what you mean about 'ministries' and i am praying for all of the details, etc. your family is one to look too when people ask "what does a christian family look like?" i may see you tomorrow; if not the day after that. call me we should do coffee!:)
~kim d.~